Working now at an after school program. Woohoo. But I'm just losing time. I feel like I really need to get going with my life. Homework is literally killing me. Literally. I regret some of the classes I am taking so bad and I can't get out. //sigh/ Colleges. ahhhh. However, I can always come back to music. This year there have been so many great songs! Like WOW. Plus JB's music videos all on my b-day ahahah :D 

Also, my laptop charger broke yesterday! Oh no... had to buy a new one. What lame timing! 

Some people are just so rude. 

Was having wifi issues the past few days, but finally fixed!!! But I did something terrible, such as spilled water all over the family computer when I was using it. 

My 2015 is really really starting out bad and I don't really want to list them because it really....is that bad. :( 

My mom is really getting on my fking nerves. 

And I'm already not feeling good about myself and the start of the year. She's very not understanding and supportive at all. fake. I thought otherwise. 

Some Bish

So someone stole my brother's bike. Seriously? We checked our cameras to see, but no luck. He had it yesterday, but today it's gone. And in replace we saw a foot-leg cast on the side of the stairs. It has a little dried up blood too. So gross! 

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

IM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO DONE WITH THIS FREAKING GROUP. I SWEAR! JUST 1-2 HOURS AGO, I WENT TO CHECK GOOGLE DOCS AND IT WAS PERFECTLY FINE, EXCEPT YOU GUYS DIDN'T EDIT IT. SO OBVIOUSLY I TEXTED YOU ALL TO DO THE DAMN WORK. BUT NOW AFTER I FINISH EATING, AND CHECKED GOOGLE DOCS PPT AGAIN, EVERYTHING IS FKING RUIN. I'm so extremely mad right now that I can't control my cursing...btw is it cursing or cussing?... ugh I'm so not in the mood. I'm done with this group. I never ever want to team up with these people ever again. -.- The perfectly ordered title and body paragraph in each slides have been rearranged so fking bad. It's all over the place. AND WHY DID YOU EVEN ADD THT FKING SLIDDE? DID YOU EVEN READ THE GUILDLINES? DONT NEED TO ADD UNNESSARY SHYT. INSTEAD DO YOU FKING JOB AND NOT LEAVE A BLANK EMPTY SHYT SLIDE. AND WHY DO YOU GUYS WAIT TIL THE FKING LAST MINUTE? BSBSBSBSBSBSSSSSSSSSSSSSS AND I CANT ANYMORE WITH ANY STUPID EXCUSES. THE YEAR IS ABOUT TO END. REALLY CLOSE..ACTUALLY JUST 2 MORE DAYS AND 3 MORE FOR EXAM DAYS, BUT SRSLY? BSBSBSBS!!!! DO YOUR WORK ALREADY OHMYGOSH!!!!! WE HAD THIS PROJECT SINCE THE BEGINNING OF THE 3RD QTR AND YOU STILL DIDN'T EVEN FINISH TIL THE LAST DAYS OF TH 4TH QTR? HOW THE FK?! OMG. same with the other project last week, same people, same group, same stressfulness and those whom are SUCH HUGE ASS procrasinators. Well I AM ONE myself too and I thought I was waaaay worst. But clearly I stand corrected. 

**UPDATE** For heaven's sake, I could be doing my study guide for english which I could use in the exam, but instead I'm helping doing their slides. And they ignore what I say. I hate when people do that. Think that they are better? Saying, "Well, I'm not perfect." blahbkalakabjabsjkbdjkhdfjkshfjkdhfsjh NO

Friend Problem

Wth. My friend, Kelcie is the fan of infinite, but she says that Sunggyu is taller than Sungyeol. But I said it was the other way around.. wthwthwth =.= I'm so mad now cause Kayla agrees with Kelcie. In 'This is Infinite" that I started watching recently, he was also said to be the tallest. in ep 1! I even look at pictures...wth. I'm just really pissed at them telling me that I'm wrong, but I know I'm right. //sigh// 

Maybe too much things going on in my head right now and I'm a bit stressed. Getting mad at the littlest of things. aish.

**Update** Turns out I must have misheard/misunderstood. :/

YEAHYEAHEYYAYYEYEYEYAYA

So fun today! Went out with the family and some guests to eat tonight. Aaron so cuteeee I cannot. As you probably know me and/or notice that I always say "This was ??? weeks, days, a year ago, etc" lmao XD Yeah, gonna post all them pictures and vids on a later date cuhs we all know this gurl is lazy as pluckers. LOL Espicially the car ride, me ashley and aimy were jamming on the back on the way to restuarant and back from it. XD Sososososo fuuunnnnn! Loud music and happiness. Even Aaron was happy and dancing in his seat. Heheheh this is one of the happiest night I enjoyed. Music was better in stereo, Wolf, What did the fox say, Apple bottom jeans, etc. Lol I'd like to do this kind of day again and again. But oohhhhh my voice is dead nao and horse (idk lmfao idk how to spell). 

Oh I just want to rant about a small thing..I wish people would stop talking about how I'm the oldest. Maybe I should be happy about it? But it's always always ALYWAYS like this, "Since your the oldest, blahblahblah" but not nessessarily the oldest is not the best at erry shyt okay... There are plenty, all my frineds are younger than me, many much younger than me and it makes me feel bad that they'd point that out. Ugh maybe I should just get use to it already. Since I've been trying all along...maybe just a while longer ;\

Yayyy tomorrow I get to wear my class t-shirt and jeans again! Weeeeeeee~

**Afternote: Am I not the same as everyone else? Is that why I'm treated this way? Or maybe you just hate me and doing it on purpose. Okay I'm oldest! But don't exclude me or treat me like I'm some sort of different race. It doesn't make me happy at all. More to sad and feeling more bad about myself... i'm sorry ok....I'm sorry..I...I'm sorry

UGHHHH

OMGGG freakin' sound of the drill on the wall on the other side my my wall! THE BATHROOM. I CANNPT HEAR ANYTHIGN WHEN THT THINK IS TURNED ON D:<<<< AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

**Afternote: Ouu my parents replaced the sink with a nicer and much taller one o.o

Group Projects

Stupid project groups. How can I say no :/

Why can't I upload videos anymore..?!?!?!?! Somebody haalppppp

You Pluckin Jerk

I already have my suspicions. Someone took my lead pencil in the last class I swear. When we moved seats to meet with our groups to do some vocab shyt on google docs. I had to move across the room and probably that plucker stole my pencil. Ugh. If my suspicions are right, I already know since 7th grade that she steals. What do I do now? Do I just go ask her...or..? 

UGHHHH JERRRKKKFFAAACEEEE DUMMMMMBBBAALLL KAJSHDALJKFH GIMME MY LEAD PENCIL BACKKKK!!!!!!!

**4 Dec: I found out my pen was stolen today too.. I mean yesterday, but I realized it today. That bish. Just great. 

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Guess what? Today is the start of my Thanksgiving break. But why so short... :< I need a month off cause stress. ESPICIALLY IN CERAMICS. NEVER WANNA TAKE THT DAMN CLASS EBAR AGAIN. Good thing this semester is almost over, so I can leave that class. Smh. ...... But then that means.... exams. x _ x Shoot me. r

Ugh..can I..

Can I just sleep in slumber for eternality? I so tired of projects and essays and everything. I feel like I can just break down any moment. No motivation to do anything. Except sleep sleep sleep and sleep. 

I need to pee, but I dont want to ask the teacher..

Humf

Well, I'm sorry I was born with big eyes. When I was growing up, everyone always pointed that out. "Wow you have really big eyes for an asian!" Asians have big eyes too! Not just chinky. >:T I know I have big eyes and people can easily see them. - A - In my group at school, one is very chinky and the others are I guess normal/medium. When I look at people, one of them tell me not to cause it's so obvious that I'm staring at them..?!? //sigh// Why do I need to have big eyes? To add on, I have mega terrible eye sight. Ugh. 

But I'm willing to forgive them because there are some benefits for having big eyes. I don't know them yet though. Reminds me of anime. Hahaha no what am I talking about. = 3 =

Ugh every morning

Every time I arrive at school, I have to go to my locker first then to homeroom. My locker and my homeroom is totally opposite from each side. I hate it sososososoooooooooo much. My locker is like bottom floor right side and my homeroom is top floor left cornerrrrrrr. Ughughu and it's not like I can just walk diagonally up, I have go left right up right left up turn up...lol something like that. I can't walk no moreereree! I always feel dehydrated whenever I reach my destination. Now..I bring 3 mini bottle to school. One in my school bag and two in my lunch bag. Blehhhhhhhhhh - __ - Please don't make me exercise no moreeeeee... I already got PE!!!!!!!!!!!!

Stupid Ceramics

I just finished ceramics and it's recess right now. I really hate and love that class at the same time. I'm so jealous of Jane. She makes too many good ass bowls AND SO FAST. ksakfgdskfjhsjkfhas Today, I made no bowls because apparently, I had a air bubble. No wonder it was so bumpy... Anyway, Jane made two bowls today. She has a complete 4 bowls now.. I have..2 only. AHHHHHHHHHHasfhkjdshfkjhfkhf Kill me now. Well, it's my fault for trying to compete with her. Though she doesn't know that. Her bowls are extremely nice and neat too! I can't...I want to steal it from her. >:O Ughughugh. I will go in during lunch and made my 2 bowls. //nodnod I must succeed.

HAHAH -- GRRR -- AWWHH...

Weeeeeeeeeee~ Had a blast yesterday. Home alone-ish (around 10 AM - 2 PM) with Ashley & Justin. We be doing kraazziii stuff. >< I can't even explain. I used like 3 recordings, my laptop, my sister's laptop and my camera. LOL. We have the pillow fight and dance like there's no tomorrow. HAH HAH HAH! I don't know if I'm gonna edit it. Recently, I've been thinking of making a new youtube channel to put all my weirdness there. I probably will get...bad comments, but lol, whatever. Everyone has their dislikes.. 

That reminds me, something bad has been happening to my sister, Aimy.. So, she has her youtube and all and she has this website that lets anonymous questions be asked to her. I believe it's ask.fm..I dunno. Anyway, the main point is that she's been getting bullied.. and that's not the worst part. The anonymous person is from PHILLY and someone she knows! How can..what the heck? Omg, if I ever found out who that little shiet is, oh...oh...I don't know what I'll do, but I'm just so extremely mad! Someone we know...bullying her! WHAT FRIENDS? Humf, I just can't believe this. Is that person jealous? Or gone mental and have no good friends? >:[ 

Also recently on a different topic, my friend told me that she is moving to a new school. Awwh..she only came here for this 2012-2013 school year and already leaving. She's my homeroom buddy and outside of school buddy. She came from China and speaks pretty well her english. Although, she has problems sometimes with her pronunciation. She calls me her best friend..or well I guess the closest friend she has here. She sits at a different table and her "group" members. Her group of people aren't bad, I talk to most of them and they are full of REALLY smart and fun people. :) She calls me her closest friend because I'm really easy to talk to. She says that around her group, she has to becareful of what she says, she can't be to open. This reminds me so much of my relationship with Alice back in 6th grade. HAVE NO SHAME, DO COOL THINGS together. Actually, I feel the same way with her, she was the first friend, I even was able to talk to easily with, besides some of my little groupie. ^ ^ She told me that her first thought of me was that I was the prettiest girl in homeroom. Which also leads to -- pretty girls are popular girls and that I'm quiet. Uhhhhhhhhh.................. My reaction was so weird...