And so... - _ -

Ever since my sisters left on their little trip to Oregon, I've been stuck at home with my annoying brother. His tone still makes me sooooooooo angry. He thinks that all these years forcing him to study with ALL of us (Aimy, Ashley, & I), he thinks that he is of no wrong, sort of like a victim. He takes his anger out at us for trying to make him bring up his grades because all he does is play games and watch videos. His grades are reaaallllllly incredible. IN-CRE-DI-BLE. It's so unbelievable such grades such as his exist. Okay, so I'm being dramatic right now...but they are I has said, unbelievable. Why is he making me feel like I'm guilty of wrong when I am trying to help him? Maybe I shouldn't talk about his future when I don't even know what I want to do myself. ...where am I even going with this. His level is of a second grader...maybe even lower. i.am.not.even.joking. What can I do about this? UGHHHHHHHHHHHH! 

I really hate to be home alone with him. And it's going to be like this for over a month before I leave?!?!? I rather go to the store omg TT_TT たすけて。

I Had My Own Half Day Today (Wish I Didn't)

I ate ritz bits or whatever at recess, then I went to PE and did some dynamics warm-ups. After that, I felt like throwing up so I asked to go bathroom. Then I was sitting in the toilet for awhile (diarrhea). I was in the bathroom alone for until the end or when everyone went changing into their regular uniform. During that whole thing, everyone was playing an activity that I didn't want to play in anyway. I was hitting on my own back to get the throw up or burp out and I ended up throwing up. After that, I went to Ms. Shannon and told her I wasn't feeling well. I was sent to nurse office, and they called my mom to tell daddy to pick me up. Then my dad came 20 mins later, took me home, and cook soup for me. Then I showered and went to doctor. After that, we went to CT to get the medicine I need and by the time I got it, we need to go back to school to pick them up. I left school from 11:25 I believe. When I got home, I tried sleeping, but ended up feeling like throwing up again so...to the toilet I go~.

->

I had English after PE. Totally missed that shiet. I had a presentation too =.= Then after that class, Religion I had another presentation-like thing. Fml but they weren't that important, hopefully, my group members were ok. Humf, not like they did any work (in English) and religion group was ok. Also, it was PM Assembly schedule! I miss the afternoon Pep Rally. TT^TT Aimy told me that there were guys from St. Louis school dancing on heels or something. Ashley told me about some real flexible Junior dancing at the pep rally and that it was too much for her to watch! I want to see how that looks.. Totally missed that. ;[ Although Aimy wasn't watching it either, she had to edit videos from this week 'Spirit Week.' I didn't talk much about it. But yesterday we celebrated the 104th birthday of SHA. We got some good yummy snacks (this girl dunno what any foods' called) at recess. Omggg, I just realized I missed OUR Club meeting today, nuuuuuuuuuuuu it was suppose to be my first meeting at lunch! frick fruck frack freck frock!

Oh btw, I experienced my very first pale-looking face! o-o I was looking in the mirror and was like, "holy what the heo?!!?!?!?" I look like a vampire. I also was sweating so much. ;< It was so painful.....

My Feelings At The Moment

I wanna punch Ashley. She cannot make offensive sayings sound a bit more nicer. To add to it, she so bossy (I think I mentioned that somewhere already). I dislike that about her. UGHHHH! Can she just go away. I wanna strangle her. I'm deeply hurt right now. TT n TT

Overview Of First Day Of School

It was absolutely tired on the first day of school, which was yesterday. I don't know how many times, but that 'name game' we played in some classes. I was near the beginning so I didn't had as many troubles, but still the people's name are so hard to pronounce. The game was to have an object begin with our beginning name. Ex. Marshmallow Megan.

Not only that. I have no classes with my friends whatsoever. None. I feel so miserable, but that's not all. So, everyone despises this girl in my class (won't name names) and I'm her partner for this 'partners introduction'. It's not that I hate her, I...ugh no comment, I'm such a mean person. TT n TT We have to introduce each other in the beginning of class that will probably take place tomorrow. My sophomore year has already been decided. I'm going to be a loner. 

Also, I got home with a headache. So I napped for a long time on my parent's bed. I also did today too.

Bad News

So let's start with the less frightening, but unfortunate news. TROYE SIVAN IS GAY?! My sister told me that he made a video about it, but I haven't watched it yet. NUUUUUUUUUU

Ok, so um..one teacher in my school got arrested for sexual assault. Yes, yes, yes, yes, YES?!? Omfg like what da...boobs. lol anyways, look: here

It's a religion teacher for God's sake. Oh My Gosh. I swear almost every religion teacher in my school is so...uh....something wrong with them. Ashley's 6th grade religion teacher talks about her countless boyfriends and wanting a baby so desperately when she 40 something. She also have cancer. As Aimy said, "Using her students as personal therapy." LOL, so true though. What about learning... - A - My 9th grade religion, Sr. Irene eats a part of the bible. Not that's there anything wrong with that. It was part of a passage she was reading and she did a visual aid. I also have her this year. LOL. Aimy's 11th grade teacher one time talked about Ashley's homeroom teacher that he was cute. Seriously....every.....religion....teacher. Should I be scared? I don't know. I didn't like that guy anyway. Aimy almost got him as a teacher this year. Thank God. I'm ashamed. religion teacher Ain't religious at all.

In The Morning

Earlier there was a shake in the house. I was on my phone looking at.....sexy hot anime guys in my album. Ehuehuehue ;D Anyway, my bed shooked for a few seconds. My sister came from the hallway looking for my mom and I came out too. We all felt it and we went outside to see what it was, but nothing happened. My mom thought someone just closed the door hard and Aimy saw that the windows shake. Uh oh... Let's hope everyone is going to be safe.

Stuck In A Situation

What do I do... my dad just came to my room and asked whether I should do what he want now or go to the store early in the morning also known as wake up at 4:45. He said that and left. Ashley was also there also which makes it 1834781772827274646486472x's worst. She's is really on my last and final nerve. Why the...am I related to her. I hate this feeling, but I do feel this way. I HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HAAAATEE HER. She only acts nice to daddy. Today she even dared to talked back to mommy which makes me so...........UGHHHHH. Today my anger is about to explode, so when I got home... I kind of screamed a little (soft-ish) like 3 times. Anyways, when he left... I thought about it. And then my mom texted me from the living room so I went up and looked for her. We talked for a while and she told me to tell Aimy too. I went to her room and we asked her and showed her the text. I was extremely sensitive so every time we talking about this whole 'business' I start tearing up. So I always avoid. The eyes and people's face on me. We ended up doing what my dad want. That is to step on his legs because uh...that's another story about his younger days. So tomorrow I don't need to go to the store. Hopefully Ashley and Justin go with daddy tomorrow. Whatever. Bye.

Again today

I keep falling for her nasty tricks. On the car, she was have troubles with her seat beaky cause it fell down and she couldn't get it...so I helped her. And hen during the ride, I bumped her a little and she went all out to make stupid faces at me. I can't handle it anymore. I need to stop helping her. Make her do things on her own, humf. 

I Wish...

I'm extremely pissed off of Ashley. I hate that little black grandma to no end. Even if she is my sister. She talks back, act like she is bigger and boss of everyone, and what she says I can never believe her. I try my best to act like a good big sister so so SOOOOO many times. Even Aimy admitted it out loud to me. She was doing the same thing I was doing all along..I didn't know that. Wow. ' v ' Ugh, this ain't the time to be smiling, I'm raging. //fire aroses from the back// Roaaaarrrr. That mean little black poop. I'm starting to think Justin is better than her. She is brainwashing Justin too... My world....my life....I really don't want to have this sort of atmosphere when I begin school. :( People gonna run away before I even wave to say 'hi!' TT^TT Things don't look so good here on out...but we'll see. //sigh//

I don't want to hate her though, I really don't want to. It hurts inside, but she would only act nice to get something out of me. Smh...probably.

Almost School

Only about a few more weeks. I wanna stay at home. I still need to do my book reports. omg agsgjkjlak. Now my dad wants everyone to go to the store everyday including school days. What am I going to do. Seriously, my dad is so fking dramatic. I can't take it any more. I feel like I'm going to explode to the max. Ugh, ugh, stop this mixed up feelings already. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

I Hate It

The problems of my family...I hate it. I wish it would just all stop. I guess I'm sort of at fault to for being immature. //sigh// but I just wish it would stop... I don't want to tear secretly in the bathroom and pretend I'm fine. I'm so pissed. I'm not crying for you anymore. I'm crying because I'm so tired and sleepy and fed up with your misunderstandings. Everyone is misunderstanding always always always. That includes me, too.. I'm just writing random crap..

Uh...oh.

Just about about over an hour ago, I woke up to a sound of shouting. Of so first of all, I was reading manga on the bed and then the internet suddenly didn't work for just that one manga website, so I gave up and set my laptop aside and nap for a bit. Then again as I said before, I woke up to a shoutings. What the heck...so loud. I could hear both my sisters fighting. I walked up to front of the hall way and saw Aimy on the computer and Ashley on the couch using her iPad. 

Me: Stop fighting..!
Aimy: Someone keeps fricken taking off the sticky note that I use to cover over the camera!
Ashley: It's not me!
Me: And? =.= Did someone take a picture of you and posted it up on the internet?!!?!
Aimy: I open the fricken photo booth and saw all Ashley.
Me: woahwoah suddenly remembering that sometimes in the past I took it off...maybe I should tell her.....uh.....nevermind. //walksaway

Then, I just went to shower and brought my phone in for music.

Seriously... = . =

So, Aimy started screaming in the front living room and I asked her what. And it was a bug. Ugh, ew.  >< I was internally screaming my ass off, but outside, I tried to stay calm. I told her to grab the fly swatter She did and whacked that flying shiet. She took it outside and banged it against the bars to get it out.. LOL than I locked her out for a minute and laughing, than opened the door for her. I went back to my room and then she starts screaming. "IT'S ON MY ARRRRRRRRRRMMMMMM!" I ran to the front and then I was like, "where where WHERE?" And she pointed at my foot. Omg, I wanted to screamed like a ... dead turkey or something, but I just swept it off. Then, I was walking back to my room and saw all that electricity that's on but she ain't using any. I told her to close it and I did some myself. 

Aimy: Calm yo tits... 

//while she got off the computer. I walked right after her and she finished her sentence. 

Aimy: ...wait you don't have any

Me: YOU don't have any

Aimy: //pats her chest

Me: //slaps my chest

Aimy: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHSAGDFasjkfgakdfaisu dfhakfkasjdfh

@Vabeani

Aiyaa, Vabeani :'( You go through too much. I know I say this too much..but every post you write..is like what I'm going through-ish. Anyway, your parents don't tell your brother off? Like to not talk back? Although I do that sometimes...but it just comes out and I regret it so much, but I can't help it!!! And my mom would like come up to me and slap me 10000000000 times. Ugh... my stupid mouth talk too much at home but not at school. =.= Anyway, maybe you can be the big sister that yells at your brother. I do that to my siblings when they do something bad. I try to reason with them and make them apologize when they do something bad. Scream at your brother. Let out your feelings. Uh...maybe this is bad advice. ` ^ ` My mom told me that, "If you act mean and bad to others, your child will be the same." Although, I don't know if it's true. You know, usually bad things always happen to good people.. Why why why is that? I don't understand.. This is probably another bad idea...but slap him, yell at him, and make him realize it's not all about him. Gomenasai.

What is this?!

Omg, my internet haven't been working at all this morning at school. Well, only for chrome, safari worked okay. But I usually use chrome and I didn't know why it wasn't working until 2nd class: 4th period - Biology. I was logging in and this is what showed up..

What the hell?!?! So, I changed it back the time and date in my system prefrences. = A =

Tonight, I regret. I'm ashamed..

Tonight I regret. I regret that I hurt my dad's feelings and never even said sorry. I tried to many times, but my body didn't think like my mind. It all starts when I spoke without thinking..I am ashame of myself. I dislike this side of me. Why am I so mean and cruel. Questions is all I think of. Now I have gotten my whole family involved, but it's because my dad is TOO dramatic. He says things over and over again and it makes me feel guilty much more. I need to apologize because he's crying in not just the inside, but the outside too. He's probably sleeping now, I lost my chances tonight. Tomorrow I'll have to walk to school, along with my siblings who will question me with anger I assume.

This proves I'm not nice and innocent as everyone says, but selfish, cruel, and evil. I couldn't even shed a single tear since then. I am heartless.

Note to self: Never say something without thinking.